What happens when you look at your relationships and think that perhaps you are the one causing the problems and that your partner or family are right about you?
Are you the manipulative one? Do you need help? I think that’s a great question to explore, and one to clear up too since I get this question about twice a month.
I wanted to just quickly share with you some thought processes that some people have when they’re in a manipulative or an emotionally abusive relationship. That thought process is –“Am I the one that’s manipulative? Am I the one that’s being emotionally abusive?”
I get this letter maybe once or twice a month and it’s usually from someone who’s been quite victimized from an emotionally abusive standpoint. So if they’ve been victimized in the sense where emotional abuse was taking place in the relationship often, the partner who is experiencing emotional abuse will feel like “maybe I was the emotional abuser, maybe I was the manipulator, maybe I was really doing these things to my partner and they were right about me.”
Because what often happens is that the emotionally abusive, manipulative, controlling person will make you feel like you’re doing the things they’re doing. They will even say the things that they’re doing, you’re doing. I mean, they won’t admit that they’re doing these things. They will push those things on to you and say, “You’re the one doing these things to me.”
Let me give you one gauge, one guide, one question that you can ask yourself to figure out if you’re the one that’s being manipulative, or you have these tendencies, or you’re emotionally abusive. The question is:
Were you like this before this relationship?
Were you like this in any other relationship? Were you often told, “Hey, why are you doing these things to me? You’re doing these things and you’re the problem, you’re the cause.”
If you get a “Well, no, not really. That wasn’t me before this relationship but maybe I developed it or maybe I started this behavior for whatever reason, “I’m going to tell you with 99% certainty that you are not the person that caused these issues.
I say that because often what happens is when you get into a relationship with a controlling manipulative person, even if they don’t mean to. When I say it’s a controlling manipulative person, some people do it very subconsciously, some people do it because of how they grew up in their dysfunctional environment. But it’s still controlling and manipulative because they want to control you so that you can conform to the way they want you to be so that they’re comfortable, so that they feel safe.
If you are in a relationship with someone who wants you to conform to their standards, to their perfect version of who someone should be, whether it’s a romantic partner, or family or friend. If you are in a relationship with them, you will often come out of that relationship as feeling guilty that perhaps you did cause some or most of the problems.
This is the emotional abuse formula. Let me give you a break and say this is the emotional abuse formula -that if you go into a relationship, not being this way, and then you start to develop behavior that might be considered emotionally abusive, controlling, manipulative -you very likely had to develop this to get your needs met. You very likely had to become someone that you weren’t-and that you probably don’t like being-just to get your needs met, just to feel loved, just to feel supported, just to feel like that this person actually cares about you.
So what you had to do was alter your behavior to fit into their behavior. This is what I mean when I say that I’m 99% sure that if you came into this relationship not doing these behaviors that you think are controlling or emotionally abusive, that you aren’t that person -you just had to develop behaviors so that you can get your needs met, so that you can get through the relationship in a way that made you feel somewhat normal or special or cared for, cared about.
Because often what happens is that the victim of emotional abuse and manipulation will feel so guilty, they’ll feel like they did something wrong. But that is the formula. The formula of emotional abuse is that you feel like you did something wrong. You feel like you’re the problem. You feel like you’re at fault, like you could do better. And that’s what is continuously, repeatedly drilled into you – that you could do better and you just don’t, you could try harder and you just don’t.
In my experience -several years, I’ve been working with people who are in emotionally abusive relationships -the partner of an emotional abuser will get into a state of self-blame and even seek counseling for their own “bad behavior.”
Really ask yourself the question, “Was I this way before?” and if your answer is, “I don’t know, I’m pretty young with these relationships. I don’t know if I was this way before”, then let me ask you this: If your partner, if your friend, if your family members showed up in a different way -would you still act the way you do? Would you still lie? Would you still deceive? Would you still do any of the behaviors that you think might not be healthy for a relationship?
Would you do all this all those things or would you not feel the need to do that?Because if the need is not in there –underlying, subconscious or conscious -then you’re probably not that person.
Over and over again, I see victims of emotional abuse and control come out of a relationship feeling guilty as if they caused it. So this is just to remind you that when you get into a relationship with someone who doesn’t want to take responsibility for any problems in the relationship, who doesn’t want to feel any emotional pain, who doesn’t want to admit any wrongdoing -they’re usually pushing it all on you so that you’ll take the brunt of it.
If you take the brunt of it, they don’t have to deal with it, and they can push it all off on someone else and then they can make that person feel like they actually are responsible. They can make you feel responsible for everything that happens.
Of course, when you feel responsible and you feel guilty and you can’t figure out why or what you did, then you feel more alone, you feel more isolated, you feel like perhaps you’re not lovable, you’re not worthy. All of these wonderful things about you-love and worth and importance and significance and you’re amazing – all of these things are stripped away slowly over time, chipped away by the other person, getting you into a more and more insecure state within yourself.
You become fearful of your own decision-making because they keep reminding you of how bad of a decision-maker you are. When you once believed you were intelligent, after being in a relationship with someone like this for a while, you think that you’re dumb. You think that you are a bad decision-maker and you’re just not that smart. When you were once generous and kind, suddenly, you’re selfish and uncaring. These are all qualities that get twisted around inside you. Not that you’re changing but you’re made to believe that you’ve changed.
If you ever come up with the question, “Am I the manipulative one? Am I the one causing these problems? Maybe they’re right about me,” ask yourself the question,“Was I this way before?”
If you are in a relationship for your life, like you grew up in a family and they’ve convinced you that you are always this way, ask yourself the question, “If that person wasn’t in my life, who would I be then?”
Because the emotional abusers, the controllers, the manipulators, they’re going to be who they are with anyone. That’s who they are. Though, they usually show up as more kind, more caring, more sensitive to strangers or at least people that aren’t in their inner circle of intimate connections. They’re going to show up more kind for your friends, for anyone else that looks from the outside in and they want to be seen in a good light.
Like my girlfriend once said, “You can always tell how they’re going to treat you by the way they treat the waiter”, by the way they treat what I might call inconsequential people to their life.
You get to know someone by the way they treat people that they don’t know, and that serve them. So that’s kind of a good analogy that doesn’t always work for every situation- someone might fool you by being nice to someone else and you are impressed by that.
But when you’re with someone a while, their personality starts to show when you see them interact with people that serve them in some way – you know, the hotel bellhop, the waiter, the customer service person in a department store, all of these people that show up in our lives that we may never meet again but we kind of need something from them, or they are serving us in some way.
Usually you’ll see behavior come out that will be very important for you to know because when the honeymoon period dies down (and that’s usually in a new romantic relationship or a friendship), you start to see behavior come out in them with others that will eventually come out with you.
This is so vital to understand that when you get into any type of new relationship, behaviors that they have toward others will eventually come out toward you, because it’s in them. If it’s in them, it comes out in the relationship, especially because they become more and more comfortable being their true selves or behaving in ways that they’ve learned to behave most of their lives. So, you can add that to the list of red flags.
But this is a reminder that you may not be doing any of the manipulating. You may have had to develop that behavior in order to get your needs met but think about who you are outside this relationship. You may have some behaviors that you’ve developed even before the relationship, you may be carrying those with you. But if you’re listening to the show, you’re probably willing to change those things, you’re probably willing to look inward.
It’s very unlikely that people who really want to control you, people who really aren’t caring enough about your happiness and about what you want in your life, they probably don’t listen to shows like this. And if they do, maybe they’re starting to get a glimmer of light that something needs to change in them.
It happened to me, the glimmer came when I was married. That glimmer of light, that glimmer of thought that came to me that said “Something needs to change about you. You’re losing these relationships. Your marriage is falling apart and something needs to change. Why don’t you take that opportunity to look inward, instead of looking outward at everyone else and trying to make them change for you?”
That thought grounded me. That thought brought me back and made me realize that perhaps I need to do some inner work – and I did, I did a lot of inner work and it saved me, it saved my relationships.
I hope that anyone listening to this can see that glimmer of thought or it can come to them in some way so that they can perhaps look inward and think “maybe I need to change something about myself.”
Remember, if you weren’t this way and you are only this way in the relationship, and you are sensing that something is wrong with the relationship but you can’t quite figure out what it is, it’s probably not you.
And if you think it is you, that’s why I created The M.E.A.N. Workbook. The M.E.A.N. Workbook has a 200-point assessment that you can check off everything that your partner does or a family member does. That helps you assess what level of emotional abuse and mental manipulation it is. I’ve had people give it to their partners and their partners checked off things too and gave them some realizations.
If your partner is honest and they can check these things off in an honest way, then you can reflect on your results together. Then afterward, maybe you can have a talk about it and communicate about what you can work on together and go through the process of healing and growing and learning a lot about each other and about yourselves in the process.
You don’t need the workbook to listen to this show. It’s just helpful if you want to assess your relationship or are trying to find ways to heal through it, get through it together, or get through it apart. I’ve been told it is extremely helpful and enlightening.